My Rating: ★ ★ ★ ★
Falling Into Place by Amy Zhang is a book worth reading. Written in first person, it is a story that narrates the life of Liz Emerson before and after her planned tragic car accident. Liz Emerson is the most popular girl in the town of Meridian. Just like a typical popular girl, she destroys the reputation of those who she thinks are better than her. But that’s not the whole of it, is it?
This book speaks a list of things: bullying, cause and effect, the third law of motion: “for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction”, regrets.
“Appearances were all that mattered, and no one would ever care what she was like on the inside. No one cared that she was breaking apart.”
I had mixed emotions for this book. I got upset at Liz Emerson that if I could squish her, I would’ve. She frustrates me to the nth level. I felt pity at Liz Emerson because of what she does to others, she does to herself too, without realizing it. I got hopeful of how she would sometimes defend people because of how they received scorn from others. Others that are actually like her. Not exactly like her, but kind of like her. Because of this, I pity her again. There is so much to hate in Liz Emerson but I think my major emotion for this book is pity. If I were to say that I hate Liz Emerson because of what she does, that doesn’t make me different than she is, because then, I’d be joining the circle.
I found that reading the book was kind of difficult. Every time, I struggled with what is happening because one chapter, I’m going forward; the next, I’m going backward. I tried to connect the events together in a single direction once and for all but in the middle of doing that, I got lost (why do I sound like Liz here?). It’s seriously bothering with my reading. It’s bothering with my concentration and imagination-building (if this is a word).
What I liked about the book, though, was that Liz Emerson contemplated on the horrible things she did to others. She knows what she did. She recalls them and regret her actions that she would cry over and over for what she did. It didn’t matter if it was only about thirty-three minutes before she had her car crash accident. She reflected.
“She hated what she was and didn’t know how to change, and half an hour before she drove her car off the road, she saw that despite all of that, she didn’t have enough force to stop the world from turning.
But she had enough to stop her own.”
My favourite person in this book is Liam Oliver. The way he views the world around him makes him appealing as a character. He is in love with Liz Emerson but his reputation was thoroughly destroyed by Liz. He was forced into the outcasts. He was done with her and he was done with putting up an act just so he could please the eyes other than his own. He embraced himself. He knows forgivenes.
“He went on. He played his flute. He found that there were still beautiful things in the world, and nothing could ever change that.”
What I wholly believe, is that Liz Emerson is also a victim. Before she lost her father, I saw that her life was whole. She was jolly and happy and she felt unbreakable. Everything was perfect. But that perfection was simply a taste for her. She was not meant to have all of the deserts on the table. Liz Emerson’s world started crumbling at a young age when her father died. She became empty.
Falling into Place is a great book and something that should be in your TBR pile. I don’t have words on how to convince you guys to read this but you just have to! Trust me on this one. But let me just give a fair warning that this book contains suicidal thoughts and depression. Please be aware!
Liz Emerson knew what she needed. What she truly needed was help, but she didn’t know the words to ask for it.